Tranquil

I know not whether it's the path I've chosen to walk on, or whether it's the way I think about the world and in turn think about myself, but lately I've been feeling peaceful..... for some reason that is completely beyond me, I am actually feeling not at all involved in this world...... more like all the things that happen around me seem insignificant........ well in a way that's true...... as I wrote in my previous Blog but still this feeling is something I had not expected....... When I first started thinking about all of this, I had expected me going insane, or maybe killing myself to run away from all the questions that had been bothering me, but no instead I feel more calm, composed....... Again I know not whether it's calm before another storm or this truly is what will last for the rest of my life but in my journey of finding the true meaning of human existence this is a new experience, and needless to say like every other experience so far I'm left with more questions, but this seems to me like a milestone....... but then again there is always a possibility that I'm way off my target but I wouldn't know till I at least reach a wrong goal....

Also there was this thought that is in my mind I am yet to understand or think about it but it goes something like this, "Engulf me in the vastness of your creation, I want to go so far deep in there that there will come a point when you and I will no longer be two, no words will be needed to say cause there will remain nothing to say, no vision will be needed cause there will remain nothing left to see, no mind will be needed cause there will be nothing to think over/about, and in being one with you we'll be whole once again......."

Clearly not much sense it makes if one thinks about it logically but for some reason it just pop'd in my mind one day..... but as I said I need to think this over so I can understand it better, it may take me forever to understand or I may never understand it but I need to keep this so it doesn't slip my mind somehow........