Prime Mover......

There I was once again in doubt...... whether to post it or not cause the depth of this subject(unfortunately cause of my poor vocabulary I have to use "Subject" but it's far more than just a subject....) is so deep and so much that I just can't seem to find the courage to put it in words....

So like I mentioned in my previous blog that I came to know something that I like to call 'Mechanism' but then me being a Human I wanted to go beyond that, so I tried and it took me a while to notice it I admit it, I had to really try and see it this time but I think i caught another glimpse of it, what I saw this time needless to say it is impossible to describe in words cause words just don't seem all that capable when it comes to this, but like I said this time I caught a glimpse of the one who governs over this 'Mechanism'.........

Well it's more of a force than a deity or a being...... it's more of a spark that runs this whole machine that's the best how I can describe it ( I'm deeply sorry if I'm making no sense.)

So when I saw this 'spark' I was wondering.... what makes it all so godlike that people address it as God, The One, Creator, Almighty, Morpheus and so on........ and then yet again the answer was right in front of me, it's simplicity will never cease to amaze me and this is the one time only I'm gonna say this cause that's just how it is.

The simplicity of it is, it just knows everything and it just directs the unfinished thoughts or idea's from one to another through this gargantuan network it has established in human brains, more like they say nothing can be truly destroyed in this world, things just change forms similar to that neither idea's or thoughts are created or destroyed they are more of experience of our ancestors or those who have lived before us and they just come to us through genes or sometime through our dreams, I mean the idea on the first look really seems dumb even lame, trust me even I thought so for a moment but then again, and I will be quoting the great Einstein on this one, "Reality is merely an illusion, albeit a very persistent one."

So who is to say that even our thoughts are reliable? But putting that aside there it was, that 'spark' is just channeling thoughts, idea's,experiences to people all the time and those who grasp it seem to think that they had an idea and they start working on it thus moving towards what was always gonna happen. If by some chance they don't get it on their own someone else gives them the same thing they were always gonna get, and so on there can be a numerous scenario's............................ clearly I or you cannot grasp what that spark knows..... or is able to see...... but nonetheless it has intrigued me even more.

"The more I open my eyes and my mind the more I am able to see and understand, I am hoping this will carry on for as long as I'm alive, cause the worst thing that I can do is shut my eyes and my mind to this beautiful world and be consumed in hatred and jealousy and bitterness towards my own kind who are just as much in all this as I am, all those things or emotions or thoughts you can call it anything you want, binding me from getting what I really want, what I strive for, Absolute and complete knowledge of everything."

Mechanism....

For a while now I've been struggling with myself whether to write this on my Blog or not, but then again as no one reads it other than me I thought why not?

I've been searching as to why I was here in this world for a couple of years now, I admit that first it started as a innocent question and I myself wasn't fully aware of the depth of this question, but as time slowly started showing it's miracle I became more and more aware of the question I thought I'd find the answer to, clearly I failed, and again I started looking, failed again, this happened for a number of times, and I started getting angry about the very fact that i was not able to see the answer to that question, let alone see it I wasn't even sure whether it was even there or not, and unfortunately people around me aren't exactly focused on that question, they are not around the same task or quest of finding why they are here in this world, they are unfortunately wrapped in this world and it's marvels for them........

Can't say that I blame them, but I certainly was not listening to the same drummer as they all were probably still are, I was more interested in search of another drummer rather I was wondering if there might be another one who is playing the real tune, the tune we all really need to listen to, I obviously was not able to find anything remotely close to it, and then when I was angry and depressed.... well angry cause I had failed over and over again in the quest which I foolishly set for myself..... and depressed well that's a story for another time.

I found something which was always there I just was not able to see it cause I was too busy looking outside towards the world and pointing out their mistakes instead of looking what was with me this whole time, a faint image, a sort of vision a fading thought perhaps I can hardly describe what that something was, but it got my attention and I capitalized on it, soon I understood that my decision was quite spot on for that situation which I was in.....

That image which I saw...... it sort of changed my perspective to look at things...... more like I understood I was taking all this whatever that was happening the wrong way, and I felt so foolish....... All this time I wasted in search of the answer which I was growing sure was never there, will never be there........ felt like a funny twist of things, I was too naive to see what was going on....... but now perhaps I just may have seen the faintest image of why we all are here......

A B.E.A.U.T.I.F.U.L......... mechanism........ so beautiful that I am forced to write it the way I wrote it the first time..... the ingeniousness of this mechanism is so far beyond words....... I can only try and elaborate it here........

For every small decision one makes, the mechanism has a plan ready for it, the mechanism adapts itself towards every change in decision one makes and the result of is never something that wasn't supposed to happen.......... please forgive me if I am not making any sense...... I will try that again. The mechanism like I said has a plan for events to happen but what is beautiful about it is that the end result has already been decided no matter how many different decision one thinks he has made he cannot change the end result. that is what I meant when I said it adapts..... and even though I may not sound convincing please feel free to observe it for yourself, cause it's always around us, 'everyone of us' is surrounded by this mechanism, choice is after all a delusion that was given as an idea from that mechanism so we will not feel trapped, but in reality we may all be trapped tighter than ever to this mechanism........

I wonder how much of that will I be able to prove someday...... but rest assured I'd not have put it here if I had not thought that I've seen it.......... clearly I need more knowledge if I am to understand this.........