Compiling......

All of us meet people everyday, some people we know like our parents,relatives,friends,girlfriend(s) people we see regularly neighbors etc. , some people we don't like strangers, but in all these one thing is sure that they all interact with us. That is why we name them how we name them, some of them are good some of them are bad but, they are the reason that we are shaped into who we are today. They are the reason we turn out to be who we are, not entirely of course. A person's character is who he truly is, so with that in mind he will react to a certain situation in a certain manner what we think of the action and the result is something we take away from that event as an experience and these experiences shape us ultimately. But the thing that really interests me is that one can be anyone who he wants like I've said in my previous post, but also he can be only a puppet to his character....

When they say that school shapes us,helps us make our decisions in future life, I on the other hand would say that every day of our life mold us to who we are when we die, but more importantly what we take as our experience from the little events that happen in our lifetime make us who we are as a character as a person as a human being, so if I may say this, if there are criminals in our society we are partially responsible for that to be so.The thing here is that all of this is so co-dependent on each other that even if I say something here it is more of a my view on things.......

Just gives me a glimpse of the vastness of this whole universe,and the realization that how tiny and worthless I am in comparison to the creator........ no wonder we bow down to him.......

And the vastness of his creation alone overwhelms me,and all our lives we are trying to gain something as lame as recognition from others and others being the people around us who are just like us, tiny and unable to make a difference to the creation of the one......

.....Well even though this is something it's not the whole thing there is more to this subject unfortunately I'm not able to put it in words right now.....

Understanding words.....

There are so many words in so many languages, a lot of languages and almost countless words.... but sometimes, sometimes words just fail to say what one really wants to say, at that time it almost shows us how petty words can be, not being able to say what you think or what you feel is just unfortunate, as we express ourselves through words, words are almost like our secondary senses but when that fails, we feel some how exposed.

Well truth to be told this is what I thought, but for myself I'll be clearing or may be complicating this by explaining it further....

We become exposed to the raw world that surrounds us, reminds us that animals do not use language keeps us in believing that we are more intelligent than they are shows us why we are humans and they are animals, but I was wondering to myself.... why do we want to draw boundaries everywhere we go....?

We define Animals to Humans, we draw boundaries on the planet we live on saying this is one country that is another, we make part within ourselves, like race difference, color difference, language difference etc.... and when everything on the outside is done parting we part ourselves... we part our views our thoughts from feelings our desires from just something that we want cause some one else has it...... So many partitions....... and some people say they are trying to get rid off partitions, I wonder if they themselves have realized that there are partitions in them also..... which partitions are they trying to get rid off?

One always knows what is right and what is wrong, but then again what is right and what is wrong to begin with? mere words to show, to help us understand, make sense of things around us.... and restrict those who have any conscience left.And after everything is said and done, not much really matters......

In the darkness

Every day I see people, people who have lived through a lot of things, are living through a lot of things, will live through a lot of things, they think in a certain manner, they have drawn boundaries for themselves..... But above all they all seem to be pretty happy or if I can say this, they seem at least ok with what's going on around.

I on the other hand get up everyday trying to understand numerous things, the things I will write here may seem petty or may be even lame... but I cannot help thinking about them and wanting to understand those things, I never quite understood why people are just okay that they don't really know the purpose of their lives, how can they just ignore the bloody fact that they are living a life and all the experience that they have all that they will gain in due course of time and the knowledge which they will attain, will all be gone once they die, all their worldly possessions won't really matter at that time, but obviously I can clearly answer why they do so, my question was rhetorical, it seems like not one day I was able to ignore that question, It always is just around me, I guess the quote which says, "We are confined in our own body for a lifetime." is right.... for me it's more like my body wasn't enough so the creator gave me an extra form of confinement, a question which I may not be able to find answer of.......

Sometimes I think it must be wondrous to be someone else just, having different types of questions in their life, like what my future might be like, or maybe what sort of girl will I marry, or may be whether I'll be a good father, something that can be answered or may be you hope that it due time this question just might get answered.... But thinking about something that just might never end, or you may not get an answer to that question, never truly understand the question itself, or if you get an answer you just might now understand it makes me want to shut off my brain and give in to the eternal peace that is just waiting for me at the end of it all, which will greet me as a old friend and take me with it.

I just hope that what I am calling eternal peace shouldn't turn out to be a even worse nightmare than this one is....... cause if it is, who can help us......

It's about what you feel inside.

I heard this beyond words song and couldn't help but relate myself to the song, the name of the song is Madno.

Now I can go on and on about the song itself cause it's so beautiful to begin with but, I won't be doing that today on this post at least.What I want to say on the other hand is, the song got me thinking what must have the writer felt when he actually wrote this song,or may be the singers who sang it.And I thought it must have really touched their souls!

When it comes to something so beautiful you just want to do it over and over again,mesmerizes you in every way possible how can anyone put that real feeling itself or the pleasure itself in words? It's just beyond words like I said......

And yet the song itself shows the beauty of love and feelings of those lovers.... It just glides smoothly over the love and I was really moved by it,cause I for one had thought that it wasn't really possible to put love in words or even show the depth of the feeling itself.

But clearly this particular song has really done it, if not that I'd at least say it is able to show a part of what love and the feeling is all about........

There is always a first time.

Well here I am writing some of my own thoughts to share with everyone else.Maybe some questions that bug me which I would like to ask all of you.

Okay now straight to what I'm here to say.

I'd read this somewhere that as we come into this world newborn babies we have endless possibilities, We can achieve almost everything we want,anything we want and in any manner we want.

But one always thinks that is it really true?

Are we really able to do all of this? or is it a mere delusion created by that unknown power which also created us?

Well I'd say, and after actually experiencing it or may be experiencing a part of it, What we do today affects our future in limitless ways, and also of those whose lives intervene with us. Every decision that we take leads us to a result,which also takes effects on others who are connected to our lives directly or indirectly. And if one can only imagine every small result which takes someone somewhere and a few others along with him directly or indirectly,one will easily be able to understand just how much, the power that we call GOD has to deal with. Which in other words would be yes I think the answer to the question I posed earlier is a yes,We do have limitless possibilities. But there is also a flaw in the plan which is again a beauty of this world, We are not able to reach our true potential in anything cause the very reason for it is us all of us. We have emotions and so many of them take an active role in how we make our decision what sort of decisions we make.

All I am trying to say is, Before taking any action,any decision, try to look at the big picture think of every way that your decision can affect yourself and others with you.

Felt good I don't know how many of you will read this actually but I personally felt good writing anyways.

Until next time.