I do not know what it was, but it has utterly and completely baffled me...... I was and still am unsure whether it was a dream a hallucination or intuition...... I have been constantly thinking about it but I simply cannot come up with any satisfying answer....... Your presence stunned me, it was like you cast a spell on me...... And I was simply drifting towards you, not able to reason with myself, not knowing why I felt the way I did, and I still don't....... And this situation is so strange for me, what I felt is not something I can express in words.... I feel lost but it's not the same as I've experienced through the years........ The more I try to explain it to myself, to reason with it, to understand it better the more I feel foolish, even as I am writing this I feel foolish....... It just doesn't make any sense I'm saying the same thing over and over again, but that's exactly how it feels like..... Cause I have no idea at all what that was...... And to make it even more outrageous I just cannot forget it......... I've tried to but I can't, and there are very few things which I am unable to forget........ You being one of them........ You are quite unknown to me, I haven't seen your face before, I know that with some certainty cause I rarely forget a face, I do forget the names, places, locations, and even my connection with the same but I do not forget a face that I have seen once. And since I saw yours I remember it, as if I had always known you....... There was a familiarity, and I have tried all the faces I've seen since I can remember and you were not there..... Yes I am quite sure of that, and yet as soon as I saw you I wanted to see what you were going to do, I wanted to explore(I somehow feel that this is not the proper word to describe what I wanted to do, but I don't have any other option right now) who you are, to understand the connection that I felt........ Funny how I felt a connection as soon as I saw you....... Makes absolutely no sense but there it was and I was not myself, I followed you......... Not being able to control my own body, not being able to grasp any thought of what I was doing, I was absolutely dumb around you, more than usual that is........... Even the dog that you had on a leash had a mind of it's own but not me, it was like the only thing I was able to do was follow you and even in that I had no option.......... I do understand that I am repeating myself over and over again but I want to make sure that I understand what this felt like and what it was without loosing its potential, so I will be able to understand this more completely in the future.........
After that we went to your place, I do not see why anyone would invite a virtual stranger to their house but that's just how it happened, may be sometime had passed by I am not sure of that, cause I felt the same thing again what I have described above without loosing any of its initial impact, it was morning to afternoon and by the looks of it you had just moved in, to that place there were still things lying about waiting to be kept in their own place, and I knew for some reason which thing will go where and when............ The reason why I have gone into such a detail about this is because, I saw you on the road that I keep walking on in my dreams, almost always I am walking on that road alone having no idea where this road leads to and there is nothing around me, it's just a road stretching infinitely, but I never felt alone........ Again I cannot be sure whether it was a dream or not, there were signs that it might be a dream but the detail that I saw the things that I felt confuse me......... The reason why I am writing all this is because I would like to understand what it was, if it was just a dream then I must say that it was a really vivid and detailed dream...... But on a slim chance that it wasn't a dream, it has all my attention Cause it was something that I have never felt before........
I plan to pursue it till I can understand it, I will update more about this when I do. I cannot forget this cause, with you in that moment I truly felt alive.........
