Circle.

Circle, virtually it seems like just any other shape we have discovered over the years....... But now that I have given more thought to it, I have a reason to believe that there is more to it than meets the eye....... On a perfectly drawn circle it's very hard to find the starting point of that particular circle..... And if anyone is able to easily point out the starting point of any given circle, then it's not a perfectly drawn circle....... But that is not why I am saying all this..... The reason behind saying all of this is, I think I have found another pattern as to how this world works..... And of course this is just what I think there is just no way for me to compare this against something to check if I am even remotely close to the truth or farthermost from the truth..... Anyways, since I am using my own thoughts and knowledge I could be wrong in saying the following.... "Everything changes form and emerges as something new or at the very least as something that particular form was not before it changed it's form." Or to simply put, "Everything changes its form from one form to another." But I was ignorant when I first thought about this. I failed to see that it's not simply changing one form to another and to another and so on..... I am assuming that there can only be limited number of combinations to form creation of any kind. So with that said, I was puzzled as to what will happen when all the forms have been assumed by a set number of particles? Will that form be the final form? Or is there something more to that? And after thinking on it for quite some time I once again was astounded at the ingeniousness of the design of whatever 'this' is....... There is no such thing as final form for any set number of  particles..... all particles can be changed to anything at any point of time(Of course I am saying at any point of time for my own and for our convenience cause not including time will just confuse us...) reason being, the smallest part that we have discovered so far have showed us that it's nothing but a vibrating string and the way it vibrates decides what form will be assumed by that particle or by those set of particles........ And since there are a lot of combinations of how that string vibrates we are able to see so many of the forms on this world and the same exceeds to outside our world........ Furthermore since any and all particles can assume any form at any point of time there is just no end to anything in this world..... The same phases can be extended to infinity..... Let me break that down just in case I forget all this and get confuse as to why I have said all this...... To assume any form for any particle the string vibrates in a particular way and that form slowly starts to take place, furthermore since the string is vibrating energy keeps on getting consumed and being created...... I still am not sure on that part though cause merely saying this based on an assumption that I am making based on my thoughts would be not just arrogant but also wrong..... So for the time being I will leave it at that. Furthermore since one form has been assumed an action has taken place and following Newton's third law of motion a reaction should take place to balance it all so for the sake of this example I will say that the reaction is transformation of energy from one form to the other and I think that this law can go on forever without breaking pattern that is, action=reaction=action and so on....... with that said, that reaction would result in another action and so on..... Which will inevitably give us the creation of different forms as a by-product to the original form or as a by-product of the original form. And since so many actions and reactions are taking place by using the law of energy I think we can say that energy keeps on transforming since creation or destruction of energy is not likely. Which inevitably creates a gigantic circle or a gigantic logo of synchronization...... One thing leads to another and so on and so forth...... I think it's safe to say that there is just no end to this..... I mean since nothing is truly destroyed from this world as I pointed out earlier in my posts the only outcome which remains for the particles which have assumed all the forms is to start from their original form or somewhere in between...... which means that there is just no end to anything in this whatever 'this' is........

Well now that just leaves me speechless......... I take back what I said about being disappointed with this whatever 'this' is..... Cause as now I understand it I was simply not capable enough to see or understand the vastness and the complexion of this design..... I of course am not saying that I understand it all now.... But now I at least know what can be possible....... As always I need to think more on this to understand it better, to understand 'this' more deeply and properly....... 

Question of Instance.

Time travel, the idea of time travel was something I was fascinated with since I was in 5th standard And it just seemed at that time, that some day some one will make a time machine to alter the events of the past or to change events of future. But I was so fascinated by the sheer idea I just did not stop there, I couldn't. As time passed I started reading about 'time' and I attempted a lot of times to wrap my head around the idea of time. But I always felt that there was something that I was missing about time..... I mean it was very weird and seemed quite obsolete at least for me it did. I've spent countless hours thinking about this particular subject just to understand it better. So that I can finally understand the mechanics of time. But it just never happened...... I was always lacking information...... And I asked everyone I could about time... And most of them being my age never took the idea seriously they were in their own world thinking about only they know what.... But I still did not stop I kept on going I was curious about the future, more specifically I was curious about the moment when I finally understand the mechanics of time....... Needless to say that moment has yet to come. But there is something that I have understood about time...And possibly that's all there is to it........ But before I get into that I wanted to say this, there was a time when I was excited about this world all the wonders it has, all the new information which can be obtained through various means, all that knowledge just there for the taking..... It all just seemed to give a hint of a greater purpose, something that you will see when you gain more and more knowledge.... Or to put it in words of a gamer, the more levels you gain the more competent you become in fulfilling the games true purpose..... But now that I have gained some knowledge it has left me speechless... I just don't see any purpose.... May be I don't have enough knowledge yet to understand the actual purpose and possibility of this being the case is quite high, but I am not expecting to find out the real purpose just yet what I was expecting on the other hand was at least some sign that it may exist somewhere beyond my reach.......May be I came to a wrong conclusion after learning what I have learnt till now or may be I have learnt nothing or some other possibility that I am just not able to see like a lot of other things.......

Anyways getting back to the point I was trying to make earlier, I kept on reading about time and I started processing it it was not easy at all, sometimes I was just lost, I used to get stuck in infinite loops of actions and consequences of those actions and more actions cause of those consequences and so on..... Cause I did not understand how to solve that particular problem, and frankly until very recently I was stuck on a number of subjects due to my lack of skill in solving a problem..... So finally when I understood the mechanics on how to tackle a problem I started revisiting the old problems which I was stuck on and slowly they began to unravel and they started showing completely astounding phases........

So this is what it boils down to when we say 'time'. It's just a matter of perception. Time may not exist in this whatever this is, as a element or dimension or substance or anything that you can name. To put it simply if you can name it it's not time. Cause it is something that we humans have invented to keep track of events that occur in their respective lifetimes. Past,present and future are nothing more than a series of events in one's life. That's all there is to. And as soon as this human race becomes extinct so will time cause it never existed to begin with. But it was such a beautiful concept that it took hold of everyone be it in the past be it in the present of be it in the future. Everyone finds time fascinating at one point of their life or another. Then I started wondering why use something as unreliable as time? Why use it on our daily operations? Doing things timely or not doing them timely does it matter at all? And after all this once again I reach to the same impasse I've been stuck on for a long time now...... Does anything matter in this whatever this is....?

I suppose this is what happens when one goes in search of something so vast that it probably may be out of his reach,simply beckoning him to keep on chasing from afar but never actually coming within the grasp of the said person........ But then again I suppose it's better to chase an improbable hypothesis or an unreachable goal than to simply ignore all the things that surround you and continue the possible delusion that possibly is as old as the curiosity itself.....

I still am looking for answers to all these questions but now I understand why it is that people put their faith into something that they call God and keep on believing that there is someone called God who is looking over them through every event in their life be it good or bad. And when he wants to he can change their lives just like that.

I would just like to quote Epicurus,
Is God willing to prevent evil, but not able?
Then he is not omnipotent.

Is he able, but not willing?
Then he is malevolent.

Is he both able and willing?
then whence cometh evil?

Is he neither able nor willing?
Then why call him God?