Deeper into the......

The things that I think about are sometimes on a very small scale or sometimes they are on a rather enormous scale but what doesn't change is the pattern...The questions that occur to me they never cease..... There are just so many questions that I sometimes wonder when will I ever get the answer to all of these.....But then I remember that this human body which is currently being used will cease to exist after some time.....So what will happen to all the thoughts that occurred in this brain and all the experiences that it went through? Well as everyone assumes and probably are right about,it all goes or let's just say it becomes unusable for anyone cause the person who could have explained it is no more in that human body..... Along these lines I was thinking........ And then I started digging deep to understand what is death.... Cause if there has been anything that I am actually afraid of was the idea that there will come a time when I will not be able to question,experience,think,see,hear,smell,talk,write,feel or any number of other activities that we all do on a daily bases..... And may be that's why everyone keeps saying you live only once or carpe diem.... And even this blog which may or may not be read by anyone in future or in the present...... But will that change anything? I will still cease to exist after a while and if that's the case then what is the point of all this curiosity? And just for convenience to everyone I am referring to myself as I otherwise the reference would be something like this human body which is currently occupied by something which enables it to function on numerous levels.......Which will be very long to type and very confusing..... Anyways going back to the point again,we exist and then we do not exist the time which goes in between is just our perception cause who knows and who will there be to confirm what all this is? Sometimes there just seems no difference between the dreams we see when our eyes are closed and when they are open...... It just seems like we are trapped..... and trapped in this weird place which just doesn't have any real answers to satisfy our curiosity,it's like an ant which just keeps going on and on around a specifically made shape. That ant can virtually never escape from that shape cause it just doesn't understand what that shape is.... even if that ant chooses any direction it's still on that shape....and the beauty of that shape is it has no walls to it.... the ant is free to roam wherever it seems fit to it..... Similarly we just keep asking question and question and there are just no concrete answers.... cause we are not fully able to understand what this place is,or for that matter what's our purpose in it....... We just may be unable to understand it even with our superior intellect...... Then again it's just us and by us I mean humans who say that they have superior intellect there is no one else to confirm or deny this,and we compare this with the beings that we have been seeing all this time.....

I just think that humans are being a bit too cocky for their own good making everything about them....... Me included.... they think that they deserve to know the answers to all their questions cause someone somewhere owes them something.....But it's just not the case....... This place whatever it is was here long before we were/are/will be...... And mostly I am right about this cause that explains a lot of things like for example why no one's prayers to any god are answered or why it's the humans who are telling other humans what to do or what not to do on numerous levels. And things like that...... It is highly possible that we are just so insignificant that nothing would be any different than what it was after this human race is extinct..........

It's funny actually and more importantly it hurts the ego of each and every human being just the fact that we are insignificant is unacceptable for them.... The most likely proof that my this theory might be correct is the human behavior itself...... always doing something or the other to get attention of everyone around them just to show that they are something and they are worth noticing..... everyone on this planet is doing just that...... of course the means are very different from one another and vary depending on person to person but in a nutshell it's highly likely that it's just what I described above........

In the end all I want to say is that this was actually quite disappointing.....So far in my journey to understand what this world and what our purpose is, it just seems so futile...... Nothing can be changed or introduced a new in this world everything was always here just in different form....and all that has been happening in all these years since the dawn of human is change of forms........ from one form to another and then to another which quite frankly gives it a stench of several million years...... If I was to summarize my life or the experience in this world so far I guess this is what it would say, It would have been so much better if none of this had happened in the first place,nothing leads to nothing so that's what should have happened, nothing. 

Purpose

I have been thinking about a lot of things for a while now and this time I want to write about something that I am currently processing. Purpose. The more I think about our purpose and when I say our I mean anything that can be considered as living, the more I think about it the more I wonder is there even any meaning to it? A purpose acts in a similar way a program acts in any computer. It guides the system to do what it's function is. And for some reason I just can't figure out what our purpose is.... Now when I say purpose I mean something that will show us a path to somewhere whether that place is better than this place I know not,but when one wonders about one's existence you have to look for a purpose. Cause so far from what I've observed without purpose nothing has a meaning to it. If you give it a thought you would understand that all those people who are doing various jobs,like from collecting the garbage to being a leader to a country what they are doing cannot be called purpose of their lives are they doing something? Yes definitely but is there any meaning to their actions? That is a puzzling question,cause here is the thing let's for a minute assume that everything that can be called living will be wiped out in the next 30 years or so. Will their actions be any more relevant in that scenario? And even if we don't assume what I said above is their any meaning at all to these actions? Life or for that matter the whole legacy of life on earth and if there are any planets that can harvest life those too,are virtually meaningless purposeless. All of this you can call it whatever you want to world,us,human beings anything ultimately all of that is just a tiny blot on the endless stretch of timeline.....

 And then I wonder if what I think is correct then why are we in existence cause if I am good at anything at all in my opinion I am good at observing and another thing that I have observed in my continued existence is that there are no meaningless actions. Every creation has a function be it a very petty function in comparison to for a lack of good term I will go with infinity, it has a function nonetheless to give an example it's like this,nothing in this world is completely terminated there is no such thing as vanishing into thin air both figuratively and literally,everything just keeps changing forms,things are alive when they are not they start to change form into smaller pieces and how small these pieces are? That will be small on atomic level,but even then they do not vanish they are still in existence and even an atom is not the smallest piece there are another three small pieces proton neutron and electron out of which proton can even be dissected further into quarks each proton has three quarks 2 up quarks and one down quark,anyways point of saying all that is everything is just changing forms. and combination of these small virtually none existing particles make everything in this universe. And even these particles make a function once they combine together in different types,ways or combinations.... If you think about all of this it makes you wonder how complex the design of this universe must be and if there are multiverses then that too......

 The point of saying all of the above is the more you think about all of this the less it seems likely that all of this was just simply an accident and again even if it's not a accident that still doesn't explain the lack of purpose that we all share. It's something like this,it just doesn't matter if a person paints a miraculous painting but everyone except him is blind,ergo there is no point in creating such a complex world if there is no one to see it. I mean why would the existence even matter if ultimately everything is going to end? And the reverse is also true what's the point of existence if there is no end to it? This is what we call a paradox.

 If there is any conclusion to this matter I highly doubt that there will be anyone in the present or the future who would be able to understand it and explain this to anyone.... With that said this is my opinion about this subject in a way it's good that this body will die after it has reached its limit cause it seems pointless to live in a world where you or anyone around you is unaware of their existence in this place. And purpose for that matter and the biggest joke about all of this is the one that they call god is no where to be seen to even tell them why they are here or any questions of this kind. It just seems that we are in a endless maze which we think is around us but it can very well be just our imagination yet we do not know how to get out of it.