Intricacy of life.

Sometimes one cannot rid the feeling of being trapped in the physical body,sometimes it just seems confusing,sometimes one just wonders what is the difference between being awake and being in a sleep where you are having series of dreams...... This sense of self awareness just seems like a burden that you cannot shake off....... But then again if you were not awake in your mind you could not have possibly perceived what I'm saying nor I could have written all this..... It's just nature of our being is very complicated, we have a sense of self the 'I' is something we all have in common, that sense of me keeps us from going insane against the infinite scale of our surroundings, keeping us from self destructing, keeping us together in a vast sea with seemingly no limits......

But if one really tries to think about all this they will soon find themselves lost or loosing the grip over reality or caught in a dilemma.... But as always nothing is less worthy in this world so the problem that I'm currently facing is, how to go beyond that I,me as a being...... I am actually trying to cross the line which is drawn by our millions and millions years of evolution a sort of fail safe from keeping ourselves in survival mode......

Clearly if I make wrong moves I may loose my sanity or the shock can send me in a vegetative state, cause if I'm not wrong that's the function of that fail safe..... but I can't help the basic instinct that we all human beings share that is curiosity, curiosity that fuels everything around us, the reason I'm trying to do all this is I strive for the knowledge, absolute and complete knowledge of anything that is worth knowing which is for the most part everything except maybe the things that are man made.......

So let's hope that I find what I seek and unlock some of the mysteries that have a major role in stopping me from enjoying the world around me.